Faith is often difficult for me. I’ve suffered from disappointments, lost dreams, and confess to some less than inspirational moments after I’ve prayed my heart out.
I’m pretty confident the sun will rise tomorrow and in my longevity (only the good die young), and I know most assuredly I’ve been blessed beyond measure. But that faith thing in the unknown… in something I can’t touch, see, hear, or control… I don’t even have the faith I can get home without getting lost.
Others profess to knowing what I can’t seem to grasp. I’m a Doubting Thomas for sure. I want proof. My parents must have transported me illegally across state lines from Missouri.
I keep that part of me deep inside most of the time. I want my children and grandchildren to think “I get it.” I want them to believe in the wisdom that escapes me.
And then every once in a while I dare voice my doubts to someone I trust. Last night Pat and I discussed this topic deeply while we watched Hot Wheelz play baseball. She thinks she may be missing the gene, too. Oh, how, we’d both love to have some genetic tinkering and end up in the line with those who know.
But for now we’ll just do the best we can, and instead of having faith in Hot Wheelz ability to hit a speeding fast ball, we’ll just hope he gets on base with a walk. Just kidding… I had faith he could hit a fast ball and score a run! And I even made it back to my sister’s after the game without more than two U-turns.
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Hey there my friend check out this article on faith, it even has a tidbit on the doubting Thomas syndrome. Hope it blesses you and I hope you take time to read it.
Love ya,
Nae
http://www.gotquestions.org/lack-of-faith.html
So, Penny, have you ever thought about the fact that you do think, and worry about your lack as being a sign that you do really KNOW that there is such a thing? Honestly, now! If it wasn’t real, you would have dismissed FAITH looooonnnnnnnnnnggggg ago! Just don’t be so hard on yourself– I have noticed that everybody has some doubts about themselves and their own Faith some of the time. And I have, too! Trust me–You’re in the same line as me–the Faith Line–maybe we’re just a little further down the line than others!
Love you, Valerie